thoughts about Shawn...

Why is it that every central thought that I have is on you? I would like to be able to move on in a life that you don't really "consider me a part of." Feelings are so stupid. But you seem to be the only person I ever caught feelings for. This catching feelings thing is retarded because its not at all the type of girl that I am. But maybe you're the only one I've caught feelings for because you're the last person I was really attracted to like that. Maybe if I'd had a boyfriend or something I wouldn't be half as concerned about your life. It's very frustrating you know? I think it's worse that we don't speak. THEE FUCK, YOUNG? This really annoys me, because this is not who I am at all but...I'll get over it by Monday. But I just hate that every time I hear a song about love lost, or friendship fading, or a broken heart I think about you. I've been carrying this HEAVY baggage since 9th grade. I'm a senior now. But whatever my emotional ass needs to just get the...get over it. duece.