mourning over a love that never was

I promised myself I told myself that falling into thesehapless fantasies with people I barely even knew, and having these childish ass crushes was a thing of the past. So I tried and tried and told myself this summerI was going to meet him, and we would fall in love. and it would actually work. But yet and still here I am looking stupid. Waiting for him to reply to some random facebook message. Was I serious?I guess I was. I'll try not to worry about him, but I'm not giving up on him. I actually want him this time, and I'm not letting him go that easy.